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I cleared out the residual content from my LJ today. Not that I've been posting to it in 2 years, but it was a hassle to delete everything.

I like it here where I don't have to worry about someone reporting me for using curse words in public while they let picture comms with photos of the "full Britney" slide by.

I like the separation between the people I read and the people I want in my life. (Though I'm detesting the social pressure to add everyone to the access list. If I did that, it would be meaningless because locked posts would be locked to a subset. Right now there just aren't any locked posts because I'm pretty much the only one who can see them so they might as well be private anyway.)

I don't want to be one of those annoying people who posts constant fitness updates, because it irritated me to be on the receiving end of it. It is, however, one of the biggest changes in my life and something that's a huge part of my focus because it's new.

I am liking my gym membership. I feel like it helps me. But I fucking gained weight from it so far. Good thing I wasn't looking to be losing weight from this. I figure if I'm healthy and more muscular, the weight will take care of itself and I will feel more energetic and more interested in doing active-ish things which will also keep me on a better path.

It does, however, suck down an enormous amount of time. I ended up at the grocery store at 4pm... It's a small store and when it gets crowded, it's logistically difficult to move around.

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I have been craving crunchy food. However, apples are very crunchy. I bought a bag of apples and have been eating all the apples I want. It's totally fine to have a second apple. (Especially compared to a second bowl of chips.)

I really need a cucumber now though. Or homemade pickles. I should make pickles. Mostly I want a normal size cucumber and the ones at the store are almost 2 feet long for the English kind and about 3-4" thick for the local ones. (I've often wondered about those "erotic" guides that suggest one use a peeled cucumber as a penis substitute... some of these cucumbers would emasculate a blue whale.)

I bought avocados, tomatoes, strawberries, grapes, tangerines, red leaf lettuce... and a box of frozen waffles made out of food (seriously, they've just got the kinds of ingredients I'd use if I owned a waffle iron.)

I had all these food ideas and I bought stuff to make everything that came to mind. Except curry... I bought the lamb but forgot to buy the curry sauce and fancy potatoes. I'll freeze the lamb and we'll do it some other time. Lamb was on sale... and I just spaced the curry sauce.

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Been seeing a lot of people gearing up for 3 weeks for Dreamwidth. I'd say I'm participating... but it's nothing new. Zero entries from here have been crossposted to other sites. Therefore all my content here is DW exclusive.

But I hope it means a lot of the groups become more active. I feel like an idiot if I'm the only one posting in a group. Doubly so when the group doesn't have a lot of previous posts already because who knows if that's what's intended?

I would like to say that I am going to use this as a creative push where I will write and share something every day. But ha! like that's going to happen now that I'm not writing any fic. It's all original work and it's hard. There are very few snippet level things I can do unless you have familiarity with the characters and you can't because I haven't written anything else starring them yet. It's also hard to share because there's more of me in this. It isn't hard to share because I worry that my work will not be publishable if I put it up here... My work won't be publishable because I'm not an extroverted person who can schmooze well enough to get an agent, let alone all the social-networking stuff that makes books sell. I'm not going to be a financial success as a writer anyway, so there's no loss potential.

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Recently the show In Plain Sight introduced a new character, an over-Marshal played by Allison Janney. The character's name is "Allison". The main character is played by Mary McCormack and the character's name is "Mary". I'm really disturbed by that. It seems so MarySue that they're importing people from The West Wing in bits and drabs and having them play self-named characters. It's only those two, but it's not actually funny to me.

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That's it for tonight.

There's been some discussion of the DW anniversary and "three weeks for Dreamwidth" where people post exclusive content here instead of crossposting (I think that's what they mean.)

I'm ready to leave LJ entirely except for 2 people with occasional locked posts. I'm not having problems with LJ login cookies, but the LJ people seem really underwhelming.

What had kept me from thinking of DW as a really good community was that I didn't really know anyone here. Most social things fail if you don't have a friend who can make introductions. The friending meme might have helped with that, we shall see.

I'm not entirely convinced it will work because I'm really annoying and abrasive; people leave. Of course having them hang around for a few years is no proof against that. Surprisingly though, there are people who are willing to accept me with my contrary and contradictory opinions.

I have a definitive sign of a bad restaurant.

If it makes you vomit, it's a bad restaurant.

This could, potentially, be an unfair assignment of blame, but as long as I don't care if other people go there, I am certainly free to think it is a bad restaurant for me.

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I want a custom mood theme. Are there people who make them and share them so I do not have to create it myself?

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I read two pulp romances by Nora Roberts. I can see why they were republished in a conjoined volume, Dreammakers; they were the same book. I did really enjoy one aspect from the first book, where there is a discussion about people from different worlds and how sometimes there isn't a compromise. I believe that myself. This was some ridiculous tale about a woman lion trainer, the conflict coming between people who are circus folk and people who are not. You can't be both an itinerant and settled.

Personally I think there are a lot of these crux issues in relationships and this is how societal expectations can influence what people do. It's not possible to be a couple that both does and doesn't have children, for example. There cannot be a compromise on the issue because people who want children don't want to just borrow them for the weekend or foster the broken kids for several weeks until they're sent back to hell. But society expects that every couple will produce children. It's actually hard to find people who don't until you've already chosen for yourself. Most people in the situation seem to compromise by having children that one of them doesn't want because there is so much pressure to conform.

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I've got flowers in my garden pots.

Some problem exists with comment notifications. Hopefully it gets better. If you think I'm holding my breath and ignoring you; I promise, it's not that.

ETA: Yahoo mail didn't tell me I wasn't logged in. I could still see and open/close messages in the current window but it had stopped retrieving new things. That is quite pathetic of them.

So, if I see something interesting on the "network" page, can I comment? I don't believe in the geek social fallacies that a friend of my friend is my friend, plus I'm having a lot of personal friend friction anyway, so probably the foaf knows me as, "That bitch who's so horrible to my good friend, _____."

I'm not going to make friends this way, am I?

Anyway, someone was asking about death euphemisms, like passed on, etc.

I usually say "died." but if someone bitches at me complains about my lack of "polite euphemisms"; then I say, "[He/She/It] went to live on a nice farm upstate with a good family and lots of room to run around and play!" Because I think a euphemism should be ridiculously obvious and preferably sarcastic enough that there is no doubt.

I sometimes haunt the "network" page, which is the DW equivalent of "friendsfriends".

I cannot figure out what the problem is, none of the posts have interested me. If there is a cut tag, I never click for the rest. People who are otherwise interesting intersperse bitchy commentary about their children into everything... I appreciate that because it constantly reaffirms my life choices and because I think if more people heard the honest opinions of parents, they would invest heavily in contraception. (Of course, as soon as you admit you're not bechilded, they start saying how wonderful it is--- which means either they're lying about needing sympathy or they're a fucking liar who wants to damn other people to the same miserable existence.) But I do not want to know those kinds of people better.

The funny thing is that most people make friends by having a shared interest, but intelligent people all seem to be really proudly loner-ish, "I'm not much of a joiner." I would love to join something and feel like I was a welcome part of the membership. However, I am not very gung-ho about anything. I like fanfic, but not enough to invest in the external drama. I like television, but haven't visited even the official sites for my favorites, let alone anything more enthusiastic. I read a lot of books, but it's rare that anyone else has read them. I like to write, but only when I am in the mood. I food in all aspects (buying, meal planning, cooking, not just the eating, I don't even mind cleaning my kitchen.) But the people who also love food love it in a very different way from me. For me it's about having good food every day. That means no high-falluting meals once a month and eating instant oatmeal the other nights to afford it. It means we often eat casserole that is spooned onto a plate, not arranged by a certified structural engineer. I love yarn, but am not all that speedy of a knitter, so I hardly finish anything. I like to spin, but have no use for the yarn when it's done. I watch the news, but my opinions differ from the majority on most subjects. There just doesn't seem to be anything where there is a specific niche for me. There is nowhere that without me would not exist.

I guess that means I need to do more to make my own friends.

I'm looking to upgrade my layout. I despise the orange and blue monstrosity, but when I tried just changing the colors in the widget, I got truckloads of fail.

I'd also like more icons.

If you, dear reader, would also like these things, feel free to nudge me a little.

It falls in my list of priorities whenever I'm not looking at it.

If you are reading here and need an invite code, I have 2.